Okay, this is seriously the only page or even place where I can let out my feelings. 

I'm more than confused and lost now. I miss the times when we'd be spending loadsa quality time together. I miss the times when you'd put me to sleep. I miss the times when you'd wake me up at night, pleading me to accompany you have your late-dinner since you reached home late, due to overtimes.

I miss the times when you'd convince me as much, that you're worth my trust. I miss the times when you'd comfort me when I sulk. I miss the times when you'd sleep on my lap. 

I miss the times when you'd look deeply into my eyes and say "ILOVEYOU" for almost every minute. And, I even miss the times when you'd shower me with your love very, very dearly!

All that's gone with the wind now. I really want to know what's become of you! I want to know why you changed! I find it that our relationship don't mean much to you, anymore, and I wonder why. I can see that you don't even bother to care for me anymore. 

You've become so heartless now! Day by day, your ego is getting stronger and stronger. All I want is for you to show me your concern, give me all your love and be honest to me, every single time. That's all. Am I even asking for too much? Oh come on, what's so difficult about fulfilling my wishes???

All you care is about yourself. I mean, you expect people to know how you feel and understand you about your situation. But do you even bother about mine?? Haiss.

I've no idea on what I should do now. It doesn't matter anyway, does it? For all you care to know is about your own selfish life!

When will you ever realize that this relationship is already 11 MONTHS OLD, now?!?!?! When will you realize that I love this relationship so much and I can't bear to lose it??? When will you ever realize your mistakes even??? Haiss. Don't you remember on how much we had to go through just to make this relationship that we've built, to stand stronger and stronger so that it'll last till now?!?!? Well, you don't, do you? Tskk.

I really hope that you'd realize and give yourself a wake up call, real soon. I don't wana prolong this matter any further, please. It's not doing me or even us any good. Just one thing that you should know. If you do love some other girl out there, I'm fine with it. But please, don't do this to me. Just be frank tell me the truth . Thanks.
XOXO